Short version: Anna raised her funds! God is good all of the time! Thank you so much for every part any of you had in this process, from prayer to financial to emotional support! We are very grateful! We will not forget your care and concern! Thank you!
Longer version:
Psalm 46:5 says “God is within her, she will not fall:
God will help her at break of day.” (NIV version)
One thing I know for
sure about life is that there is no way
to be fully prepared
for its happenings.
Another thing I know
for sure about life is that God is always faithful.
In good times and
bad, we are enveloped in the arms of God.
And yet another thing
I know about life is that
God loves my children
more than we do.
He cares even more
than I do about
bringing about His
will for their lives.
When I was pregnant
with Anna, they thought I had miscarried her and they couldn’t find her
heartbeat. For a solid week, I lived with the thought that my baby might have
died. The heaviness of that possibility
caused pain I had never known before. Thankfully, they were able to find her
heartbeat by the next week and the pain gave way to elation and joy at all of
the possibilities my new child would bring.
And then she was born
not breathing. I had a placental abruption and she had been deprived of oxygen
during labor and delivery. The room was so very quiet when she was born. There
were no joyous declarations of, “It’s a girl!” There wasn’t the newborn cry
that signifies life. There was only the stillness of uncertainty in the air and
the sounds of medical professionals trying their best to get my newborn
daughter to breathe. Sorrow, pain, fear, hopelessness, and sadness were all
encapsulated in those very first few moments of my Anna’s life. I just wanted
my baby to live. And I silently begged my God for that to be granted.
Thankfully, after a few moments of hard work by the doctors and staff, Rob and
I heard the faintest of whimpers from our Anna. The sounds of joy, relief, and
thankfulness that came from me were louder as I held her for the first time
before they took her to be monitored. I didn’t see her again for hours but I
knew the possibilities for this child were now endless. I knew then that she
was an overcomer.

When I was a very young
girl, we learned a new song at our church. I can’t remember if I learned it
with my mama in cherub choir or if I learned it from someone else in
preparation for “Children’s Day” at that little country church. But I do know
that I have never forgotten its tune nor the meaning of its words. As I was
marveling over my baby Anna after I brought her home, I sang this song to her
with new
understanding that only a new parent can feel.
It is a Bill and
Gloria Gaither song entitled
“I Am A Promise” (copyrighted
@ 1975)
and some of the words
are:
“I am a promise; I am a possibility
I am a promise with a capital P;
I am a great big bundle of potentiality.
And I am learnin’ to hear God’s voice
and I am tryin’ to make the right choices;
I am a promise to be anything God wants me to be.
I can go anywhere that He wants me to go;
I can be anything that He wants me to be;
I can climb the high mountain; I can cross the wide sea;
I’m a great big promise you see!
I am a promise to be anything God wants me to be!
I have thought of this
song and those pregnancy and newborn Anna incidents quite often over this
summer as uncertainty about Anna’s future hung in the air. I thought about
impossibilities. I thought about possibilities. I thought of how my Anna could
be used in ministry this coming academic year – if given the chance by raising
her own salary. But I also didn’t know
if God’s answer might be “not yet.” So I
prayed. And prayed. And prayed. And trusted God for the answer.
As Anna started this
ministry fundraising journey, the end result seemed like an impossibility.
Especially in the last few weeks. She still needed such a large sum of money to
meet her goal. As her mama, I even started making plans for how I could make
this happen for her. It wasn’t that I lacked the faith that God could finish
what He had started. For I had seen Him accomplish that many times in her
lifetime. It was just that I was asking
God if, on top of what I had already given her,
I was the way the
final amount could happen.
But God gave me my
answer in no uncertain terms. That answer came from all of you. I watched as God unraveled His plan for my
Anna. What I watched unravel was an
outpouring of love and support for my girl all summer long and especially in the last couple of weeks so that,
through YOU,
God made Anna’s
mission of being a ministry intern a possibility.
You will never know
how much that means to me!
And my answer was
that, as much as I wanted to make things happen for her, it really was and is
up to God. What I had to remember was
that, although I gave birth to my Anna, she is HIS Anna first and always has been.
Her possibilities are
in HIS hands, not mine.
I would
wholeheartedly believe this even if she had not finished raising her funds. But
I am thankful that this time, her desire and His will have matched up. She not only raised what she needed to go to
work but she raised a little more than her original goal!
She has shown me that
her possibilities are endless.
And God has, yet
again, shown me
that He loves her
even more than I do.
Thank you for being a
part of God’s answer to me.
Thank you for being a
part of God’s answer to my Anna.
Thank you for
investing in my Anna’s ministry.
Thank you for
investing in my girl.
And thank you for
helping me remember
that it’s up to God
to turn those impossibilities
into
“a great big bundle of potentiality!”
In Him,
Janna Caviness Shelton